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Things were going well, really well in fact. But last night I decided to treat myself to whatever I wanted. I baked cookies, and ate them along with all the ice cream I wanted (amongst other things). I should feel really guilty (because I always do) but I know that I can get right back on track today. And I was fully aware of that the whole time. I guess I’m just a “binge-r” at heart? Isn’t that weird? I’ve decided not to weigh in this week, and let my body have that one night. Now it’s back to the goal that I’ve set myself…….

I’ve actually been committed to this lifestyle change for a month now, and I feel fantastic. I’m loving the food journal, and most of all my buddies. Even though I fell a week into this, I got right back up and started again. I’ve lost 14 pounds, and I’ve got 10 more to go until I’m within my ideal BMI range, so that’s exciting for me! I’ve been spending most of my time at the lake, which is so tranquil, and I think that has a lot to do with the way I’m feeling.

The thing that’s really blown me away, is that 1200 calories is totally doable. I allow myself a treat EVERYDAY, and I don’t feel guilty about it. I’ve realized that by NOT giving my body what it wants, it screams at me to go binge! So, I’ve been portioning all my treats (100 calorie packs), and it’s been great. Knowing that this isn’t a “diet” has allowed me to be patient with my goals. While I have been eating really well, the workouts haven’t been as vigorous as I’d like. I blame that on the fact that I have satellite at the lake, and it’s not really warm yet. Therefore, I’ve been watching toooooooo many movies, haha.

While everything has been going great, I worry about July and August, because I will be back in the city and taking some university classes. And they are toughies. In times of stress I binge till I can’t feel anything. That’s how I deal with stress/panic before exams. I do think that my new approach to eating with curb those times, but I will need support from each and every one of you. If anyone out there has some tips for me, that’d be helpful, too.

Onto the next month……will keep you posted!

SOOOOO, I woke up in a bit of a fog today (wedding with an open bar last night) and thought that I had a bad dream. I came to realize that the bad dream was in actual fact a reality: I went to Mc Donald’s last night (after I made a pit stop at Tim Hortons), and pigged out. I feel awful, so I wrote out a list of the food that I ate, along with the calorie contents (thanks to calorieking.com). Here it goes

-raisin bagel with herb and garlic cream cheese: 270+ 130

-1/2 a double quarter pounder with cheese: 370 cals

-smartie Mc Flurry: 620 cals

-large fries: 570 cals

-6 chicken mc nuggets: 252

In total, that’s 2212 calories!!! In one 30 minute window. I’m so mad that I sabotaged my great progress. I was doing so well.

Day 7 was great, but really busy. Still managed to get a walk in. Day 8 is going well, and I’m leaving to the lake til Tuesday!! YAY!

I’ve lost 4 pounds since this whole thing started! (which is less than a week), so that’s A LOT. BUT, I thought about the shear amount of food I stuffed into my mouth before this began so I’m figuring that it was the actual weight of food in my body. I can’t wait to be the best me I can be!! I keep thinking about what ladragon wrote: “Losers focus on where they are, and winners focus on where they’re going”. I only walked for 15 minutes this afternoon but that’s better than 0 minutes. I was planning on finishing up tonight but actually fell dozed off between 7:30-10:00 pm, so good luck to me when I try falling asleep tonight. The body needs what it needs, and if a nap was what I needed, and nap is what I got!

Another good day. Read a few messages and blogs some REALLY smart people wrote, about keeping the eyes on the prize. I feel great, walked for another 40 minutes, ate well. So I’m doing everything right!! haha. But, alas, I’m tired so it’s off to bed.

Rainy/ crappy/ cold day, but a good Monday overall. I ate right, and walked for 40 minutes on the treadmill (10 more than yesterday= YAY!) It’s just annoying, because I want all the weight to be gone….like, now. I want to just magically fit into my clothes, but I can’t. So I’ll wait, and be patient. I’m trying not to let the big number intimidate me, because usually when I do that I simply throw in the towel and give up, which only makes my current situation MORE difficult. Argh. Gotta keep positive and keep up the momentum.

Happy Mother’s Day! I was soooo good, I even brought a salad to my sister’s for mother’s day, while everyone else had beer, burgers and hot dogs. Feel great, and even walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes! All the support from everyone makes this FUN to do, so thank you to all the buddies out there who make this site what it is. FABULOUS.

was tough!!! It’s saturday night, and a friend came over. She ate chips and a chocolate bar, so I had a bit of watermelon. I’m glad I did, but it was still tough to see her enjoying her treats! But, another day down, so I made it through. We had a bit of wine, but nothing to throw me off track. Didn’t exercise, but I went to Costco today (I’m sure that counts for something)

Over and done! I’m happy about that. Didn’t get to working out, but tomorrow for sure. Just glad to have made it through the day alive, haha. Loving the food journal, and my new buddies. I think this time will be different. I KNOW this time will be different. I know that I’m worth this effort, and that this will change my life!!